Archive for September, 2010

Not a single tear fell when he said goodbye
Yet her heart was veiled
Bleeding
Throbbing with an immeasurable pain
She was left with memories
Deeply moving
She was left with a life inside her
Yet she faces an extreme turmoil
Inside her emotional shell
She had to say goodbye
Do what is right
Even if love still lives
Even if the flame still burns
The tears in her eyes he wouldn’t see
For she is holding back
The pain that stabs her heart
The cravings that wound her
The love she would forever possess…

©CMN

Sitting by the fire, imagining your smile
Looking at our photograph with a sigh
Thinking of the days we made in each other’s arms
Reminiscing on how you sheltered me from harm

Holding my pillow tight, feeling your sweet embrace
Craving for each minute of our days that passed away
Lingering my thoughts on the memories of our kiss
Crying in despair for an unanswered wish

Praying silently as each memory comes back to me
Accepting the fact that dreams would never be reality
Telling myself that if letting you go is what is right
I’d be happier to go my way and give up this fight

Burning every thought we set on pen and paper
Wishing that tomorrow, each step would be clearer
Knowing that I should say goodbye forever
For you can never be  mine, and we’re not meant to be together

© CMN

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There are times that situation would call for us to step away. Contrary to what others think, its not a sign of cowardice. Rather, it is a sign of bravery as we are strong enough to face reality, and accept that there are things that just weren’t meant to be. At the end of the day, what we lose doesn’t matter. What matters is the lesson learned, and the person you became…

I bleed as I fight this thing I feel
I’m losing hopes and strength as I come to kneel
From the flight I ended up with broken wings
Envelope myself in misery for the pain this love brings

The universe inside my heart collide
My tears fell down as I cried
This thing I feel engulfs my sanity
But it should manifest, my act of bravery

I fight so that I won’t end up asking myself ‘what if’
Though I fail, I rise, my spirit given a lift
I don’t want to regret one day and tell myself ‘if only’
So I gamble with the littlest of my possibilities

Colors drain from my world as shades of gray propagate
I fight, though without a heart to call my own, though no one appreciates
Yet, as a warrior worn out from endless battles
My energy slowly drains; my heart weakens from its struggles

I reach out for a smile, a touch of you
While praying someday, you’ll feel the same way for me too
But I know your heart I could never win
For it belongs to someone I could never be

I know I should set you free though it breaks my heart in two
But I accepted it; you’ll never feel the way I do
Letting go doesn’t mean I’m weak, so is my reluctance of laying all my cards
It’s my strength of fighting the urge of wanting something I’m not supposed to have

Goodbye my dear one though it’s tearing me apart
Go to where your dreams lead you and take away my heart
Thanks for making me smile; I would love you still without doubts
Begone! Away! I’ll stop myself from reaching out.

© CMN

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There are times when we feel like we have been holding on to something that is not really made for us. There are times that we reach out for something which is not intended for us. The only way to set our souls free, is the time when we stop reaching out… Just let destiny and fate take control…

Fallen on a slumber where dreams reside
I’m feeling cold, wishing you’re here by my side
Loneliness creeps, emptiness engulfs me
I am here alone drenched in my misery

Songs of love sting in my ears
The more I hear, the more enslaved I am by fears
Memories soak into my soul
I can’t believe a love like this could swallow me whole

I cried your name but no one hears
I curse myself, why do I have to shed a tear
The wind blew hard, my tears wouldn’t dry
I tried to reach out, but you shrugged and bid goodbye

There are spaces, and your hand I cannot reach
Walls in between, barriers I could not breach
To where you are I could not go
My voice weakens, my soul crawls to and fro

Worlds collide as mine fell apart
I have to set you free, I no longer own your heart
Though is till love you with all of me
There are spaces in between us, I should set you free

© CMN

The realities of a wonderland creeps into my veins
Each memory weakens my heart with a force I can’t contain
Your smile comes back to me stabbing my soul deep
Your laughter which caught me makes my heart weep

So much love, so much joy, too much pain
As we’re apart, things will never be the same
I close my eyes and see your face once more
And yet I weep, seeing you again walk out the door

I cannot hear my heart’s song any longer
And I guess I can never be much stronger
Farewell, gently take your precious flight
Take with you my heart, and fade into the night

© CMN

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We come to a point in our lives that we would feel like we have loved too much and yet it’s not enough.  And the only way for you to really free yourself from the chains is to walk away. At one point in my life, someone taught me that letting go is the bravest thing to do. And I will forever thank that person, who brightened up my days, and who slipped into the night… You will always be remembered…