I was browsing through old poems and I stumbled upon this one. A poem I have written for someone who had been, and would always be, a very special part of me. I was reminded of how things were with him, of how strong the feelings were, of how gullible and stupid I was. It is the sentimentality that is killing me now, it is the longing to feel that way again that is crippling me now… I have to let go and get ahold of myself now.

I  am attaching two poems in here. The original version is in tagalog, and I have added an English translation which,  I admit, is not as good as the original. Forgive me, translation is my waterloo. Anyways, I hope you like it.

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Adik sa Kape
11.03.2007

Namulat ang mata sa nakabubulag na liwanag
Isang bagong umaga ang inahin sa aking hapag
Subalit ang lungkot ng kahapon at lamig ng gabi
Ay nakabakas pa din sa puso’t kalul’wa kong sawi

Isang tasang kape ang pumawi sa nadarmang kalungkutan
Ang init nito’y nanuot sa kasuluk-sulukan ng kalamnan
Pinawi ang lamig na nadrama ng kaluluwa
Animo’y naroon akong muli at kayakap ka

Ang bawat higop ay isang milya palapit sa iyo
Sapagkat bawat lagok ay katumbas ng apoy ng mga palad mo
At unti-unti’y nagbabalik ako sa hapong iyon kung kailan unang nadama
Ng puso kong hangal ang kakaibang pagsinta

Matamis… Tulad ng ating unang halik, unang yakap
Kung saan kakaibang ligaya ang aking nalasap
Ang sensasyong kakaiba na idinulot noon
Di kailanman mawawaglit lumipas man ang daangtaon

Mapait… Tulad ng mga luhang ibinuhos ko paglisan mo
Tulad ng pagsambit sa pangalan mo, at paghiyaw ng puso ko
Subalit sa kabila ng pait naroon ang pag-ibig na di mamamatay
Dumulog man ako sa kabilang buhay

Kasabay ng pagbalik ng ating mga alaala
Patuloy kitang gugunitain, aking sinta
Mauubos na ang kape sa aking tasa
Makapiling ka lamang, ako’y iinom pa ng isa

 

Addicted to Coffee
12.12.10

Eyes opened wide against the blinding light
A new morning the lays on my table
But the sadness of yesterday and the cold of the night
Is still etched in my heart and broken soul

A cup of coffee eases the loneliness I feel
Its heat filling every crevice of me
Relieves me of the coldness felt by my soul
It seems like I am there holding you

Each sip is a mile closer to you
For each one is feels like the fire I feel while I held your hand
And slowly, I was brought to that afternoon
When my stupid heart felt a strange admiration

Sweet … Like our first kiss, first hug
From where I had a taste of strange happiness
The odd sensasyong it gave me
Would never be forgotten, even if a century pass

Bitter… Like the tears I shed when you left
Like the way I scream your name, and the way my heart cries out
But despite the pain, an undying love is there
Even if I go to the next life

Along with these flashbacks of memories
I would always remember you, my darling
My coffee cup is almost empty
Just be with you, I’ll have one more cup

© CMN

 

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Comments
  1. renxkyoko says:

    It’s a lovely poem! ! Thank you for sharing that!

    Like

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